I love myself

I love myself. With all the shadows and imperfections, I truly came to a place where I love the curious, wild, beautiful, moody, indecisive, slow, energetic and sensitive woman that I am. With every new experience that life brings I open up to what it means to be me, and I'm forever at awe with the magic and mystery of life itself. Just experiencing the watcher, the constant presence that is beyond my physical form, or emotions, or mental thoughts IS incredible. Yet also grounding into this human experience and living it fully, watching as life throws balls at me and playing with them. I'm yearning to express something, but I don't always know what it is or how to express it. At this moment it seems to be the appreciation of beauty and life and being me. And acknowledging that it was a long road to come here. Because we are not brought up to 'love ourselves as we are'. Quite the opposite. Society wants to fit us into a box of what is 'acceptable' and that process of socialization breaks us up into million pieces. Until we are ready to claim them back and stand in our own internal truth of 'this is me and I don't give a fuck. Take me all or leave'. Now really, we all DO still have parts of us that deeply care about others' opinions, but it's only a part of us that needs love the most, mostly from ourselves. We judge others based on what we don't accept about ourselves. And we can only truly love the other based on the love we give ourselves. #loveyourself